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Ripple Effects Revisited

Recently I looked for the art piece that helped me heal the hate I had for JPF.

I hung it in my art studio. But it seemed to always be looking down at the space where my grandchildren play, so I moved it.

I usually keep it in a drawer. I didn’t really like looking at it. It was too powerful and painful. Although the intention of healing was tremendous 4 years ago, I felt a heavy weight in my heart when I looked at it.

I searched everywhere and couldn’t find it.

I called my husband he said, “Honey, I think you threw it away.” I was stunned. I couldn’t conceive of throwing it away. How could I throw away this powerful symbol that transformed me and JPF so deeply? I was so disappointed in myself.

My fear and anxiety grew.

For days I was deeply concerned about my mental health. Why couldn’t I remember throwing it away? It didn’t seem like something I would do; throw away meaningful art. I wondered why I wouldn’t sell it rather than discard it? I had offers to purchase it. But I kept it to use in race and ethnicity classes at the community college.

Days of beating myself up and retracing my steps led me to remember what happened:

I had a strong urge to listen to the last of the recorded conversations I had with JPF, the day before his execution. In our conversation, he showered me with compliments, gratitude and love. He seemed genuinely sincere when he  told me how much it meant to him that I would forgive him. He asked that I call his friend Glen Miller, suggesting he would be good to me.

I never called his friend. I may have forgiven JPF but I’m not stupid. I felt strongly that if I visited him,  JPF would have someone waiting in the parking lot at the prison to finish what he started in 1980. That’s why I only spoke to him on the phone. I didn’t trust or like him. I pitied him.

I couldn’t listen to more than a few minutes of our conversation. It was too painful and traumatizing.

I looked up Glen Miller and found several articles including these:

Glenn Miller White Supremecist Murders 3

Glenn Miller’s Wikipedia Link

Miller’s murders were committed on JPF’s birthday, the year after his execution. This act of domestic terrorism was mostly ignored by mainstream media. I sincerely believe that ignoring these domestic terrorist’s crimes, helps white supremacy flourish in the shadows.

JPF and Miller’s stories sickened me to my core.

At that moment, I felt that no one, who can do anything about it, cares about healing racism or holding white supremacist domestic terrorists accountable in our country.

Something inside me broke. I walked straight to the garbage and got rid of it, along with the memory of throwing it away.

If only eradicating the ignorance of white supremacy were that easy.


Ripple Effects of Race

Folio Editors Choice Non-Fiction

On a hot summer night, August 20, 1980, I was jogging with 3 friends in Liberty Park in Salt Lake City, Utah; two black men, Ted Fields, 20 and David Martin, 18 and Karma, my best friend. We were both 15 years old and considered “white”, although my mother is a first generation Mexican American.

On our way home from the park, we were shot in the crosswalk. At first I thought the shots were leftover firecrackers from Pioneer Day, July 24. I assumed someone was throwing them at us because we were “race mixing.” With the first shot, my arm, neck and legs were bleeding and felt like they were on fire. I couldn’t figure out where the firecrackers were coming from. There were no cars on the street. I couldn’t see anyone near us.

Dave said, “They got me.” We all laughed nervously and said “good one.” He fell. His blood was everywhere and the shots kept coming. We all tried to catch him and carry him to the end of the crosswalk. The blood was such a brilliant red color against the black pavement between the white lines of the crosswalk. In hindsight it is incredibly symbolic of the deadly aspects of racism and intolerance in America. Ted fell. Both of them were on the ground. I went into a state of shock. I was like a deer in the headlights. All I could hear was the echo of gunfire. All I could see was Ted’s face.

Ted kept telling me to run. I couldn’t hear him but I could see the words he was saying, when I looked at his contorted face. It took a second for me to absorb what was really happening. “I can’t leave you here!” I said. The shots kept coming. I had the strongest telepathic message from Ted at that moment. “If the situation were reversed you would want me to run. RUN!”

I ran as fast as I could, into the field of 4-5 foot tall grass facing the crosswalk. I thought I could hide from the sniper. But something made me come to an abrupt stop in the middle of the field. I didn’t know it at the time but I was running right to the killer. I felt like I ran into an invisible wall and I stopped. I couldn’t move. But I never saw him. Karma ran into the field and grabbed my arm. A brave woman came outside and ushered us into her basement apartment. I kept hoping I was having a nightmare. “This isn’t real” was played on a loop over and over in my head. But it WAS real.

By the end of the night, Ted and Dave were dead and I was covered in bullet fragments from bullets that passed through Dave and shattered on the pavement all over my tiny teenage body.

Curated By Brolly Arts and Art Access Gallery

We were shot by Joseph Paul Franklin, (JPF), a racist serial killer who killed at least 22 people in 12 different states. He also shot and paralyzed Larry Flint for printing pictures of a black man and white woman having sex in Hustler magazine. He was trying to start a race war all over the country.

He wasn’t captured until October that same year. So for a couple of months, as my sophomore year was about to begin, I was blamed for setting up the murders of my friends, by Utah local media and communities.

This part of my childhood was the PERFECT EXAMPLE of victim blaming. My father was the president of a local motorcycle club and I was still alive. The survivors were pretty “white women” (We were not women. We were 15 years old) and the murdered were college bound young “black boys who were a credit to their race.”

For several days the local newspapers printed articles denying any racial motivation for the murders along with my full name and address. They told my mother the public had a right to know. The other victim’s addresses weren’t given. The reporters made up stories when no one had any leads.

I was a responsible 15 year-old, volunteer tutor, head cheerleader and honor roll student back then. I was voted Miss Dream Girl at my school. But none of that was ever brought up to describe me in the misleading articles that painted me as white trash with no value, a race traitor. I upset the court of public opinion by “race mixing” and they made an example of me. They wanted to make sure other white girls knew the consequences of race mixing, especially with black boys. Even at the age of 15 years old I thought it was strange that I could be considered white in their eyes when it was convenient for casting a shadow over my family. Growing up with my single Mexican mother, the white Mormons made sure we were aware that we were not considered white in their eyes and we were not welcome in their social circles. There was more of them, than us and we knew it.

I wasn’t allowed to go to the funerals. The victim’s families blamed Karma and me. The victims were dead and black. We were alive and white. We weren’t considered victims. Even when the shooter was charged for his crimes our names weren’t on the paperwork as victims, just witnesses. “They lost the most. You’re still alive”, was the reason given by the lawyer.

When the killer was identified, the news never retracted the rumors they started. The rumors stuck to me like a scarlet letter. By October it was still too dangerous for me to live in Utah. There were cars full of people driving slowly by our house with guns pointed at our home. I called the police and asked for protection, but I was told, “Maybe you should have thought of that before you hung out with those niggers. We’re too busy. Call us if anything happens. “

I felt so guilty. I felt that I brought this hate to our home. It was like a bomb was thrown in my family and I believed it was my fault, (I am still overcoming the obstacle of survivors guilt at the age of 50). I had to move out of state and into hiding for our safety. Our lives and relationships would NEVER be the same.

Victim Vortex

I felt Ted and Dave with me on the 30 year anniversary of the murders, August 20, 2010. I held a private ceremony as I left a crystal, a candle and an unsigned note on the memorial plaque at Liberty Park. I was vulnerable that night. I came out on Facebook and told my friends what happened in 1980. Some “friends” chose to “unfriend” me. But I considered that a blessing of knowing my true friends.

The next day someone saw the offerings on the plaque and called a reporter. But when the reporter got there, the note was gone. She wrote an article in the Salt Lake Tribune the following day and pondered what the note said. A dear friend sent me the link to the article. It took several hours to get the courage to read the comments online. I felt fragile and didn’t know if it would be wise to expose my heart to be broken again.

There were so many comments. When I finally looked, I was surprised to find that 95% of the comments were kind and gracious. I couldn’t believe it. I decided to respond and include the letter. I had to create a user name to respond. I used the name OneLove. I didn’t leave my name or number. But I was required to leave my email. I included my letter and thanked the commenters and reporter for their kind interest.

What unfolded after that comment was miraculous. Within 15 minutes of the post, the reporter called. She wrote another article based on that interview. My only stipulation was that she use my maiden name.

The victim’s families got in touch with the reporter and asked for my contact information and we spoke for the first time. All was forgiven. Every day the reporter wrote a new article to update the community about what was happening.

By the second or third article a woman from Utah Progressives said she would like to create a March In The Park for Ted and Dave, which coincided with the 48-year anniversary of Martin Luther King’s, “I Have A Dream” speech. She asked if I would speak in Liberty Park on August 28, 2010, eight days since I left the offerings on the plaque. I accepted with the exception of using my maiden name rather than my married name.

Ted’s family flew to Utah from several states on a moment’s notice. Dave’s mother was there as well. When my father and his brothers rolled up on their Harleys wearing their colors, everyone tensed up, noticeably.

My father got off his bike and walked up to Ted’s father with open arms. When they embraced he let out a sound that was primal. It startled me. I turned to see my father crying in Ted’s father’s arms. I will never forget it as long as I live. “It wasn’t me. I wasn’t there. I wasn’t even in town that night.” Dad explained. He brought his brothers there to protect the crowd from any racist antics from JPF’s admirers.

When the printed program of the “March In The Park” was passed out, my full legal married name was included. At that point the tv news reporters gave out my name and the paper asked if they could as well. I lost clients and business associates due to my “coming out.” I was worried about my children and their safety more than anything. I knew JPF said his greatest regret was leaving survivors. I was concerned someone would hurt my children to seek his approval.

Curated By Brolly Arts & Access Gallery

After the dust settled, I decided to go back to college hoping to understand and heal racism in my community. My first semester, I took a race and ethnicity class as well as a design class. I learned a lot about the world and myself. I learned that race is a social construct. It isn’t real. It was built to keep people of color and immigrants of “undesirable” countries from having access to democracy, wealth and education. Irish, Italian, Jewish, Germans people weren’t even considered white originally in America. Being white was a privilege then, just as it is now.

The first semester final project for my design class was to create a mask. I made a mask out of the newspaper articles mentioned above. I didn’t know it, but I would have to wear it and explain it to the students in the class on the last day of school. It was challenging to be that vulnerable in front of these people who thought they knew me. Trayvon Martin’s story was reaching a fever pitch at the time. I just happened to be wearing a hoodie that day. When I explained my story to the class, I had to put the mask on. I couldn’t wait to leave.

A student followed me in the hall and asked if I would be willing to consider doing an art exhibit. Another student asked if I would lead and speak at the Trayvon Hoodie March. I accepted both invitations. At the end of the semester the students in the Race and Ethnicity class were surprised to know my story and came to the Hoodie March. I found the more that I allowed myself to be vulnerable, the more I healed my PTSD. Migraines, memory lapses and nightmares were less frequent as I became educated and created art.

In June of 2013 my life changed again in a dramatic way. I created an art exhibit with art created from the newspaper articles in 1980, 1981 and 2010. I read the articles from 1980 and 1981 for the first time when I created the pieces for the exhibit.

I was shocked and grateful my parents didn’t allow me to read the articles at the time they were printed. I really don’t think I would be here if I’d seen them back then. Suicide or drug addiction would have been a very likely outcome.

Currated by Brolly Arts & Art Access Gallery

Perhaps you are searching in the petals for what can only be found in the roots. -Rumi

Many people attended the exhibit, including the Tribune’s editor and the former mayor from 1980. I met a man whose aunt gave Dave mouth-to-mouth resuscitation at the crosswalk. He said his aunt recently died and she was deeply affected by the crime. A friend of a woman who worked at the tennis shop in the park the night of the murders came to the exhibit and told me how the crime affected her. A woman, who survived Auschwitz as a child, attended and told me her story. She said that my art was very important and to keep telling my story so this never happens again. Many times I was humbled to tears, listening to the stories of ripple effects from JPF’s crimes in Salt Lake City. I finally realized that for 30 years I ignored how the murders affected me. But I also ignored how it affected others in my village.

I read an article about JPF’s childhood abuse and neglect. One of the statements from his aunt said that she knew of the severe abuse he had endured and regretted not helping him.  I thought of the ripple effect of his child abuse. What would his life be like if help had arrived when he was at the mercy of the merciless? How many lives would be different? I realized he lived a life of punishment, with all of its Karma, from the cradle to the grave. But it began before he had a choice.The child victim in me saw the child victim in him. I couldn’t hate him anymore. My heart felt full of grace and Light replaced the shadows. My heart was scarred but whole. Grace, kindness and compassion was shown to me at just the right moments along my journey.

JPF received two life sentences for murdering Ted and Dave, so did their loved ones. I received a life sentence along with my loved ones. It’s a ripple effect of loss that can’t be adequately defined. The child abuse JPF endured had a ripple effect that proves no one is immune to the effects of a village turning their backs on the suffering of others. We all pay the price one way or another. That’s why it’s so important to remember it takes a village to raise a child.

I created an art piece for JPF and placed it in the gallery on the last day of the exhibit. Then I immediately drove to Millcreek Canyon. I meditated that his suffering be eased. Three weeks later JPF was given his execution date for the murder of a Jewish man. He was never given a death sentence for killing black people. He chose solitary confinement for 33 years to avoid attempts on his life by other inmates.

Curated by Brolly Arts & Art Access Gallery

Child Abuse Casts The Long Shadow of a Lifetime

I believed execution was the only way he could be released from the suffering of this lifetime. I still do.

About a month before the execution I was looking at my Facebook feed and found an article from Southern Poverty Law Center. It said, “Joseph Paul Franklin Denounces Racism and Asks His Victims for Forgiveness.”

I lost time. My husband walked in the room and said “What happened? Why are you crying?” I didn’t even know I was crying. I literally couldn’t talk. I couldn’t find the words. I knew this was an answer to my meditation.

I included a comment to the writer along with a picture of the piece of art I created. I told him to tell JPF I forgave him and to go in peace. I commented that I always wondered why he didn’t kill me. Later an author, writing a book about JPF, commented on the same thread. He mentioned that JPF admitted he couldn’t get me in his scope because the light was in his eyes. Light? It was dark with deserted streets and there were no streetlights that would get in his eyes at that time.

I couldn’t help but think Light energy protected me. We are all energy. What happens when we die? Where does our energy go? Will his energy bind with more hate and make it stronger? I think of my higher power as Light. I had dreams of Light that helped me get through the worst of what happened to me after the murders and it helped me keep going without giving up. My baby book said “Light” was my first word.

I wanted to heal JPF. I wanted to ask him to choose Light when he died. I thought I could give him some of my Light before he died so that he would choose Light and it would tip the scales of healing for everyone who was affected by his murderous rampage. The village failed him as a child and the child took his rage out on the village. I wanted to be different than his village. I wanted to be the embodiment of compassion, kindness and love. It felt like the only solution.

Curated By Brolly Arts and Art Access Gallery

My family was understandably fearful of me talking to him and didn’t want me to do it. At one point my sister said, “What if you give him your Light and you have none left for you?” “It doesn’t work that way. A candle does not lose its flame by lighting another candle”, I said.

I sent him a couple of books to ease his fears while he was waiting in his cell next to the execution room, “Feelings Buried Alive Never Die” by Karol Truman and “The Great Divorce” by CS Lewis. But he didn’t read them.

JPF wanted to talk to me in person. I couldn’t do it. I wouldn’t feel safe doing it. I wanted to be close to my family. The week before and the day before the execution, we spoke for about 2 hours each time, over the phone.

I tried to be the embodiment of compassion while I spoke to him. He told me about his life in and out of prison. Listening to him talk, sometimes it felt like I was forever falling. I could smell the burning crosses when he described being inducted into the KKK. I could see and hear a thousand white hoods chanting their hate. There were moments of our conversation that I felt dizzy and nauseous from it and wanted to hang up, especially when he said he had pictures of me hanging in his cell.

He told me that he was changed by meditating, and reading about different religions. He even read the Quran and thought it was beautiful. He said he regretted his ignorance tremendously. I hoped he was being honest. But I wasn’t sure. I finally had to make peace with the fact that he was as regretful as he was capable of being.

I asked him for one favor. I asked him to choose Light when he died. I knew he believed in reincarnation, as I do. He said he would do anything for me. I told him, “If you choose Light, come to me as my grandson and I will love and protect you the way you should have been from the beginning of this lifetime. I come from a family of sisters, no brothers. I have daughters, no sons. I have granddaughters, no grandsons. I told him “every time I hold my grandchildren I will love them the way you should have been loved.” He knew I had biracial children and said he didn’t care. He kept thanking me and saying that no one was ever so kind to him. He said he loved me and thanked me over and over, many times. He was as happy as a child on Christmas morning.

Curated By Brolly Arts and Art Access Gallery

I dodged the press and stayed busy as much as possible the last time we spoke, the day before the execution. I told JPF to come to me in spirit if he chose Light, so that I could finally sleep all the way through the night. That day was challenging. He was given 2 stays of execution. But in the early morning of November 20, 2013, I awoke to the news that he was executed.

I withdrew from everyone close to me while dealing with school tests, flashbacks and migraines. I saw the interviews he gave on TV as the media had the execution on every channel. I was grateful I didn’t speak to him in person. He looked like a broken neglected animal that hadn’t been groomed in 33 years. It reduced me to tears all day. My greatest comfort came as I held my infant granddaughter close to my heart while she slept for hours and hours. She cried every time I put her down. I cried silently as I held her while she slept.

The following night, I told my husband, “I feel so light in my chest. Have I carried this heaviness in my heart since the night of the murders? I didn’t even realize the weight of it until it was gone. I don’t know if it’s gone because I forgave him or because he’s dead. I wonder if he chose Light?”

At that moment, a tsunami of what can only be described as intense love, joy and gratitude knocked me back into a chair behind me. It was a thousand times more powerful than the way it felt when my newborn children were handed to me at their birth. I didn’t think anything could compare to that feeling. But there are no words to describe that moment adequately. I sat and quietly wept with the deepest feelings I’ve ever encountered in my life. I sat with my face in my hands until I could stand again. I felt so humbled and honored to be a part of this journey. My husband stared at me in helpless silence. “I’m going to bed. I am tired to my bones”, I said when I finally stood up to go to the bedroom.

I fell asleep quickly. It felt like I was being watched. I could sense someone standing at the doorway watching me. I could feel him, like a parent looking at a sleeping child. He came towards me, traced my nose and cheek with a fingertip as I finally slept and said, “Don’t think of it as a death. Think of it as a birth. Thank you. Thank you.”

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Values Exhibit Art Access Gallery Artist Mentor Exhibit


  • the lightness or darkness of a color
  • worth

Brown Paper Bag Test– Slave owners held brown paper bags to the skin of a slave. Those as light or lighter than the bag would be allowed to work in the house.Those of a darker skin hue were sent to the fields. These were two very different life sentences, life circumstances and life expectancies. The residual expectations of beauty from the brown paper bag test still affect society today.

Colorism is a reflection of unjust expectations, within ones own race, of acceptable standards of worth and beauty based on lightness or darkness of skin tone.

Its like starving for acceptance and being given a beautiful inedible piece of cake.

• How does colorism affect our capacity to understand, love and accept our multi-ethnic families, villages and ourselves?

• Can we heal the misunderstandings of the beauty of value and the value of beauty?

For me, ethnicity awareness brought an awakening. The challenge of racism isn’t one I chose. It chose me.

On August 20, 1980, Joseph Paul Franklin, a racist serial killer was trying to start a race war across America. He murdered Ted Fields and David Martin, who were African American. I was hit with bullet fragments as we jogged from Liberty Park in Salt Lake City, Utah. I was 15 years old at the time. I grew up in Utah. But this wasn’t my first or last taste of racism.

When I fill out a census report I never feel like I choose the right description. White not Hispanic, isn’t true for me. Hispanic doesn’t feel right either. I am multi-ethnic. I come from a long line of open-minded lovers. Many were lost in their need to be as worthy as the white people in their world. Some of my beautiful Mexican ancestors bleached their skin. My mother remembers hearing her Mexican grandmother tell her, ” We may be dark but we are just as good as the Okies.” She believed there was a rating system of worth and importance. She told her “we are better than white trash.”

If she really believed this, how did she feel about herself and her grandchildren who carried the less “favorable” traits of dark hues and ethnic physical characteristics or the children whose skin was lighter?

My ethnicity is tied to the culture of my sphere of influence; my friends and my family as well as their friends and families. Our lives touch each other to shape our experiences. It is a ripple effect.

At times I’ve been told I look like an exotic white woman but my ethnicity is more connected to the African American and the Hispanic culture. My father had blonde hair and grey eyes, my mother is first generation Mexican American, with dark hair and eyes.

Growing up in Utah, my family was often ostracized and called “spic”, “wetback”, half breed” by our white Mormon neighbors whose parents didn’t allow them to play with us. To them we had no worth, no redeeming value.

“Tell Me Who You’re With & I’ll Tell You What Your Worth”.

“One Day I Decided To Love Without Society’s Permission”.

To Look As Light As Possible: EVERY DAY Use Grandma Ceja's Skin Bleach Recipe: Lemon, Olive Oil and Baking Soda

Being a fair skinned, bright, shy, obedient, quiet and introverted child, I seemed invisible as I observed the grown ups around me. I quietly fell through the cracks and listened. I heard their unguarded conversations (as children often do) and learned about the toxic give and take of racism.

Those conversations treated me to the double-edged sword of white privilege at a distance. I still marvel at the poisonous mind-sets or sayings that imprison those who just want to fit in, to be valued and belong, to be seen as a person.

“Don’t be fooled by my beauty. The light of my face comes from the candle of my spirit”- Rumi

Tell Me Who You're With & I'll Tell You What Your Worth

Starving for acceptance and handed a

I believe in the law of three fold. You get what you give, times three. That’s why I don’t want to fight prejudice or declare war on racism or anything that offends or scares me. My intention is to heal racism with art and uncomfortable conversations. Healing begins within, exploring self imposed biases and prejudices.  Everything touches everything.

My art is a  hopeful prayer for the voiceless. It is an invitation into the void of uncomfortable conversations where the healing begins.

Values Exhibit Larry Fishing Values Exhibit Back Values Exhibit Art Access Gallery


I think the women at Art Access are really fairy godmother’s who grant wishes for art waiting to be born.

I’ll always be grateful Art Access granted my wish and gave me the opportunity to work with such a talented and giving artist, Liberty Blake. She’s is teaching me the fundamental, structural and artistic process of collage art. Her generosity of time and wisdom has been priceless.

The evolution of this exhibit grew from exquisite conversations of vulnerability with Liberty. Her professional and personal advice allowed me to give a voice to the family secrets of colorism.

I look forward to working with Liberty in the future. This has been a challenging beautiful experience I will carry forward in my artistic career.

© Terry Jackson-Mitchell and, 2014. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Terry Jackson -Mitchell and with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

Carmen Watercolor Final

My assignment in figure painting could be anything I wanted to paint so I chose to paint my version of Dorothy Dandridge in “Carmen”. I like how it turned out. We normally use oil or acrylic but I wanted to try watercolor. Its my third time painting an assignment in water-color. I like working with it but I think I would do better if I took a water painting  class.


My  version of  Dorothy Dandridge in "Carmen"

My version of Dorothy Dandridge in “Carmen”


Art Marathon

I painted this picture of my sweet granddaughter. I didn’t use black or white paint to mix colors. She inspires me to understand the trauma imprint in our dna. I want to heal our family pathology of abuse, rape & poverty. I want to change the world for her and her sister, by healing the race wars within our ancestry.

Curated By Brolly Arts and Art Access Gallery

She is the essence of all the ancestors before her. As she is growing she heals THEM in her.

Buddha February Healing Art A Day Marathon

I painted a chrome statue of Buddha. It sits center stage in my home, keeping me mindful of being present & grateful for all the blessings in my life.

Oil wipe-out

Oil wipe-out


Healing Dance- February Healing Art A Day Marathon

Curated By Brolly Arts and Art Access Gallery

I am healing the trauma of RACE WARS in my dna.

Spring semester 2013, I was asked to create paintings without using any black or white to mix the colors for paint.

I couldn’t help but think, “What would my life be like without black or white’s influence?” I often feel that I walk between the space of race.

I thought of all the races that are part of my DNA. I come from a long line of open-minded lovers, maybe some weren’t given a choice. Many ancestors were on opposite sides of race wars; French, Mexican, German, African American, Native American, Middle Eastern, English, Irish, Scottish, slaves & slave owners.

I thought of the imprint of pain & misunderstanding because of the black & white mentality that cripples my heart when I feel like I don’t fit in.

I wondered if I could heal my ancestor’s pain within me.

I visualized them all, speaking of their lives & their journeys. I wanted to hear them all. I wanted to heal them all. I saw them making peace with each other in another realm where no black or white was allowed, just the pure colors of their essence. They were my inspiration for these paintings.

I see them all dancing within me.

I see them in the face my grandchildren.

Changing the world begins within…. outside of black & white.


Bob Marley Oil Painting, Inspire Healing Art A Day Marathon

Bob Marley Oil Painting, Inspire Healing Art A Day Marathon

I recently watched a couple of documentaries about Bob Marley. I am so glad I did.

For me reggae music has become an acquired taste. But I’m aligned with the energy and message of reggae.

I was in awe of Bob’s story. It’s ironic he died of skin cancer.

Bob was biracial. His mother Jamaican and mostly absent father was English. His fathers family denied him, even when he was at the height of his popularity. It is because of him that most people recognize his fathers last name.

A Jamaican woman he loved said he died of a white disease, skin cancer. Many healers believe if you don’t deal with your feelings they show up in your body as illnesses.

It made me think of the white oppression he experienced in his every day existence. I wish he could have been healed from that damage. He was such a powerhouse for love.

His songs and messages of ONE LOVE are eternal truths that still soothes those that reach towards equality and humanity.

February Art Healing A Day Marathon

For the month of February I’m painting people who healed my view of the world. It’s a project that matters to me because I truly believe we all have the power to heal the world. Every single one of us has that power. This is an opening to a creative conversation about healing the unresolved trauma imprints within my dna.

This is the beginning of my digital painting class. I am pretty shaky. This is all new to me. I’m using a computer that allows a pen to draw on the screen. I like this class a lot. I am learning about cartooning, story boarding, figure painting and social media. The classes all seem to work together. It’s fascinating and incredibly fun.

Healing the ancestors pain within me.

Healing the ancestors pain within me.


Healing Begins Within

Article from Southern Poverty Law Center, By Don Terry

Curated by Brolly Arts & Art Access Gallery

Before he was a monster he was a child, who waited for help. No one came.

Four weeks from now he will be executed.

I truly believe that JPF should be relieved of his suffering. His energy has been nothing but dark, evil and murderous. I equate it to an abused animal that can’t be stopped from killing and harming at will.

I am not seeking revenge. If I sought revenge I would want him to die in prison in his 90’s. I am seeking the mercy for his suffering life.

I think about what happens to our energy when we die. Energy doesn’t die it transforms. His energy is a black hole of hate. How could that be healed? I think of Martin Luther Kings quote, “Darkness cannot drive out darkness. Only Light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate. Only Love can do that.”

Some people think of God as Light and Love. I am one of them.

Maybe his dark energy could be transformed into light before he dies. I hate to think of his energy binding with more dark energy.

He never knew love. As a child he was brutalized, starved, beaten under the peripheral vision of family members who didn’t help him. “It wasn’t polite conversation. It was none of their business.”

He was a product of the village that turned their eyes to the suffering of an unprotected abused child.

I am not making excuses for him. I can only forgive when I truly hear his narrative.

But knowing how he was raised I understand how he grew up to murder the children in the village. Averting our eyes to the suffering of a child, doesn’t shield us from their pain.

I pray for him.

I pray he is sincere in his apology and renouncing of racism.

I pray for his healing before he dies.

I pray there is a God.

I pray for reincarnation.

I pray he is born to a loving nurturing family and is raised to value love and life.

I pray for the end of child abuse, racism and apathy of the village.


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